A gathering disquiet

The hold of comfort and pleasure, this false sense of ego is so strong that one gets astray in front of the wide open eyes and mind. Worse is the situation when one witnesses the deterioration of oneself with open eyes. Culprit is not the one who ignorant because he is oblivious to reality, culprit is the one who sees and understands the reality with waking eyes and mind, yet indulge in ignorance, again and again, totally mindful of its unpleasant repercussions. Many of us have become such culprits, I am one of them. Having glimpsed the reality, a little drop of it if not the fruit itself. Yet I have been repeatedly indulging in self-mischief. I undertake actions that jeopardize my evolution with full knowledge of it. That is criminal.

Every action of mine is leaving a trace, which will have to be neutralize. What I seek requires outward inaction and inward steady progress. I did it briefly. I stopped somehow. To some extent, the situation has been reversed to my one’s own detriment. There are men who do not know they are culprits and perform actions. There are those who do it despite knowing the triviality. Let us be clear. Death stares us at all. Not in the gory sense but in the sense of a worldly reality. Yet I perform actions with a sense of accomplishment as if that is the most necessary part. It is the least. All this exists because there is reality that transcends both birth and death. And it is foolish to get caught up in trivialities. The extraordinary reality that contains everything and is the very basis of all existence needs to be uncovered within in this very life. I must have lived many. I can feel the hollowness of the world, its materialistic tentacles. I am fed up of it often. The grip of illusory maya has to be done away with. That is essential. The illusion can go on creating falsehoods in the mind till the end of time, for that is but an end of the same thread. But the journey to the opposite end of the thread has to be undertaken, and urgently, for the disquiet within grows. Before things fall apart, which they do, one must salvage the commitment and courage to gather the cluttering thoughts and offer them voluntarily to the fires of purification. It can be done. It has been done. It has to be done again, HERE AND NOW!